Tired or Retired?

There is no question of tired or retired. I am doing better after leaving that place. I am on my way, the direction, I wanna head. It's not the stage or age to retire. But for sure, I would not work in that toxic, violent and abusive every possible way environment. I have left that place for good. Yes, some party tried hard during this time period that I must join back. Some maybe out of some fears and for my own good. But for others, it maybe good for their own vested interests. But fact is it's no more in any interest to me or my people under the given circumstances. These vested interests people have kinda kidnapped my people in different ways. Harmed them the worst way possible they could. 

Subtle and insidious designs. Ignorance, too local mindset and to some extent being not so literate and some strange kinda created poverty in the surrounding added fuel to that. And these very factors of insecurity seem their fear factors. But I am done. Any kinda fears cannot lead me back to that hell. I have already left that campus house in May last week. I have already given even keys of that home. Wonder, that till now even after more than two months, there is no official response to that. Though, there is no ill will or any bad feeling towards that institute or majority of people there, as any institute is bigger for some small minds and harmful designs. People will come, people will go. But institutes must work and run towards the betterment of society, the purpose they are made for. Rather than for gamblers or some specific political parties. 

Yes, there were times when mind was so toxic that I used to wake up in morning with the feelings not to go to some office but who's who must be finished there. Some tucha-pucha neta was first on that list, along with some chairs. That was the time, when I resigned again for my own good and for the good of people at large. Rest is history, how different parties tried to enforce in different directions.

This village for me was a temporary place for security reasons from some dangers. In the process, have also become some strange kinda study place. It will be a place for my occasional shift dwellings or some understandings of this world and its problems. A world, we so-called literates isolate ourselves or feel isolated with time or circumstances for a better world and opportunities. And in the process, are also ignorant of so many, not so good realities, created by this literate world to this not so literate world. 

While living away, you cannot even notice this making of human robots by so subtle and insidious designs by some vested interests. Most such vested interests lead sufferings to ignorant people. And interestingly, these people don't even wanna believe that people who are leading them are harmful and causes of their miseries.