@ 45 What Do You Expect From Life?

Interesting question?

No?

@ 45, I am not expecting miracles from life. But

But I am experiencing some. 

Like?

Miracles of hair colour changes. Natural Indian brown by birth to light brown till M.Sc.

To fashionable Loreal of ash colour, brown colour, light brown colour, burgundy (Which looks red in sun) to burned damaged bhootni white (CoVID atyachar), to back to natural, to bleach, to brown again -- had to due to some function in some dear and near ones rather say kinda enforced by some who did not like that bhootni look.

To come back to natural with some experimentive modes of nutrition and least chemicals uses/abuses. And my hair are turning kinda black, light black, I guess. Did I hear right? Not hear but watching day by day. 

How much nutrition and least use of chemicals can change the texture or colour of hair? To great extent I guess. Experienced. 

It was my kind of experimentation and experience. Now look at people's kinda experimentation and given experiences.

What is your age?

37

Few more years.

What few more years?

Danger zone.

And I could not understand what kinda danger zone, some people were talking about.

Then experienced the same question here or there.

@ 38, 39, 40

It was a bit too interesting @ 40.

Over 

Means?

My periods were over at 40 and blah, blah, blah

I was surprised, what the hell were those questions or talks about and why?

@41, 42

Still your periods are not over? Kind of surprise factor. And I was like periods can be over @42? I started enquiring mother, aunts, some relatives, and online resources.

There were different answers. But 45-50 was the genetic answer. But how does that matter? People like me rather use to think, better if over as early as possible. Monthly headache over. But people had some other kinda headaches, I had started realizing now. 

Rather should say had been abused that way during Psycho Control, September 2018. The injection, I had been given also had hormonal problems along with some others. Though after few months, I was back to normal but commentary of that abuse was at its worse, at times even today. 

Even worse, when I look at some chairs or justice holders of my country talking in 1, 2, 3 etc. language. Natural question comes to mind, who gave these people this right? Do they know what were my protests? What are my views? If not then please go through my written protests. Get off from my personal life. People who abused me in whatever way are my past. I did not carry them along. This dirty politics and so called fighters did, without my knowledge and consent. Or some of them are party to Kangaroo Courts? I don't live there. 

My professional life or anyone's professional life should be away from personal targeting. Someone's professional rights if have been intermixed (for whoever vested interests), then how that person is liable for that? Rather that person suffered due to that, both at personal and professional front. 

It's the same politics which is murderer of common people at this excuse or that excuse -- again without their knowledge or consent.

I do not like people whose lives and talk and walk revolve around gossips or personal lives of other people. What a mockery of intellectual(?) stuff that don't have answers to criminals activities -- people/politics that do planted accidents, operations, deaths, create diseases-psycho among masses, where none exists. 

Even strangest, when I was on that search trail -- "This was the person who did this, this was the person who did that, this was the person responsible for that (side driver seat)". 

Arre? Where were you people, when I was searching for all these questions? Could have informed that even then. Why did not? Means, you people were also at some crime zone or did some? Let's play hide-hide or hide and seek? Now, this person himself was on revealing mode along with some confessions.

We don't expect miracles from life but at times, life throws at us, in strange ways -- digestible or non digestible.

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